Embracing the Ever-Changing Expression of Creation

(Audio Recording)

Happy day my friends!

I've been reading this book called "The Way of Mastery”. The book is a collection of three volumes: "The Way of the Heart," "The Way of Transformation," and "The Way of Knowing." These volumes aim to transform the mind and foster a connection with the Heart, enabling a life of mastery.

Currently, I'm immersed in lesson 32, which requires a 30-days of reflection on this question: Where do I refuse to give the perfect freedom of the ever-changing expression of creation? For the past 18 days, I've contemplated this question, uncovering fresh insights each day. During my morning reflection on September 14, 2023, I had a profound realization I wish to share. It exemplifies what can surface when we really go within with intent.

"Yesterday, the question and the answers that arose within myself ignited a rollercoaster of emotions that I allowed to flow freely during a group coaching session. In the past, I might have suppressed my feelings, driven by shame. Now, I questioned, 'Should I feel ashamed?' Another voice responded, 'No, that was okay. You did nothing wrong.' There is immense peace in that reassurance. It's okay because what I discovered about myself is what matters: the fact that I was refusing to give perfect freedom to the expression of creation, to the expression of love. Recognizing this humbled me.

Let me explain what happened. Two days ago, a dear friend gifted me a one-month membership to her group coaching sessions. While I knew about the membership and was eager to support her mission, I hadn't taken action due to my responsibilities caring for my visiting parents. So, I delayed exploring her website until after my parents' departure.

However, when she messaged me that she had granted me access as a gift to check it out and offer feedback, I felt uneasy. With my discomfort, I hurriedly checked the website and, upon seeing the $20 monthly fee, thought, 'Of course, I can afford this.' My hesitation came from the fact that I decided to leave my work to venture into a new adventure with a leap of faith. I have not regretted this. On the contrary, I am enjoying it with all my heart and being. Still, the money I allocated as a start-up ran out, and I am still figuring things out. While I wasn't certain about committing month-to-month, I knew I could afford it this month. I replied to her expressing my intention to pay for the membership to support her mission. To which she replied back “I do not think you have to pay to provide support.”

Her response struck me to the core. It made me realize that I needed to work on my beliefs about money and abundance. At that moment, I realized how many times I have refused the ever-changing expression of creation - this was an example of it. Through my friend, God was expressing Himself, and I had not been receptive. I had refused His gift, primarily because my ego was wounded.

Now, I understand. Deep within, I know my friend had given me access out of pure love and appreciation. She valued my opinion and desired my input as a form of collaboration and sisterhood on our shared journey. Yet, at that moment, my ego took the reins. It questioned, 'Why didn't you act sooner? Why didn't you pay for the membership? Do you now need to weigh every decision because you're not earning money? Should you consider finding a job?'

These thoughts were quickly followed by a wave of emotion – 'I've depleted the savings I set aside for this adventure. I must be cautious with every step, living without financial freedom is limiting.'

Then, I realized that my perceived limitation stemmed from a belief in lack buried deep within my subconscious. If I ask myself: Is it true that I have no abundance? The answer is absolutely not. Based on the evidence, I am abundant. I have a beautiful house and an amazing family. There is always food on our table. I have all the material things I need and more. I lack nothing. So, where did that sense of lack coming from? It comes from the fact that at this moment in time, and only temporarily, I do not have the same availability of money as I used to have working for a corporation.

I also realized my challenge in receiving, often tied to a sense of scarcity. When someone offers a gift, especially if I can't match their gesture, my ego questions, 'Why is this person giving this gift? Did you ask for it? Do they think you can't afford it?'

Through this process I became aware of my discomfort in receiving from others when I can't reciprocate equally. It's a recurring feeling. Wonderful friends have gifted me before, and I've hesitated, not because of ingratitude but because of this very reason.

I realized yesterday that yes, maybe I can’t reciprocate to the same extent at this moment in time, but what if they feel reciprocated out of the gifts my heart offers them? Also, it didn't occur to me that maybe they were not expecting anything in return. That maybe they were giving out of love, out of the ever-changing expression of God. That they were just showing their appreciation and their love for me, and that this was a way for God to express abundance. Through my friend’s gifts, God was sending me what I was desiring.

That was the moment I became emotional. I discovered that I was indeed refusing the perfect freedom of creation. I was not able to see their love. I didn't even say ‘thank you’ for the gesture because I was looking through the lens of ego instead of through the lens of love. I discovered I have to learn to receive the perfect freedom of creation to be able to give out the perfect freedom of creation. Giving is not about material things. Giving is about the feelings and emotions (the content) behind every action. What was the motivation behind the gift? It was love, appreciation, a desire for collaboration.

God is teaching me to accept and receive graciously, with joy. It's okay to receive; there's no shame in it. There is love with what it is received, and I should reciprocate with the same love and with gratitude. Having the ability to receive each other's gifts makes us stronger. The more we allow ourselves to receive from God through His children, the more we can give out His Love to His children. It's all a flow; we just need to allow it. We must break free from limitations and be perfectly open to the ever-changing expression of creation.”

With Unconditional Love, It will be Until the next!

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